I had that kind of a moment around the group of paintings from my Free Expression classes with Carolyn James. http://www.carolinejames.com/ It suddenly occurred to me there was a woman in every painting. It suddenly occurred to me that every woman in each painting was me. Not only 'just' me .... but bits and pieces of me, facets of me. 'Ka Ching'!!
My first painting is the woman above. She is sad. Tears drip down her cheeks splashing into the ocean below. (full circle) She tries desperately to hold on to the sun which is setting. It slip's from her grasp. She hasn't felt grounded in many years. She longs for that missing part of herself. She emerges from a palm tree, even her hands are growing roots so she may plant anew and discover unknown parts of herself, new leaves, new blossoms. Her past, with all it's glory, all its love, all its joy and all it's pain, is setting. She is finally able to allow it to 'slip' below the horizon. It's time to move on.
When she was married to the love of her life, "Home" was always 'together'. Home was wherever he was. Flying Solo, even after all these years, she has not found 'home'. She is still searching. She innately knows 'home' is her soul. That seems to be difficult for her to accept.
She sits on a bed of nails over the hot coals and burning lava of a volcano. It erupts through her entire body, burning away the old, making way for the new. It is painful. She knows she must allow it and must let go. Allowing the old to burn away, the new will have room to enter her life. She endures the pain and looks forward to tomorrow. Very symbolic of my huge exercise in downsizing. Painful, but necessary.
Well, Caroline ... I get it ... I've had a Ka Ching moment. All I can say is Thank You!
For more detailed information on Free Expression Painting, and/or taking workshops with Caroline James, http://www.carolinejames.com/home.php please see my post entitled "Free Expression Painting".
"Your life has an inner purpose and an outer purpose. Inner purpose concerns Being and is primary. Outer purpose concerns doing and it is secondary. Your inner purpose is to awaken. It is as simple as that. You share that purpose with every other person on the planet - because it is the purpose of humanity. Your inner purpose is an essential part of the purpose of the whole, the universe and its emerging intelligence. Your outer purpose can change over time. It varies greatly from person to person. Finding and living in alignment with the inner purpose is the foundation for fulfilling your outer purpose. It is the basis for true success. Without that alignment, you can still achieve certain things through effort, struggle, determination, and sheer hard work or cunning. But there is no joy in such endevor, and it invariably ends in some form of suffering."
WHAT MAKES MY HEART SING